Smithereens

Smithereens? Yes, that was the first word that popped into my head.
Welcome to my life. lol.

Hey!!
Yes, I know I haven't written anything in a while but what can I say? I've been busy!

Lets see....

I came to a realization today that the next marking period in school will be CRAZY!

• PSSAs (state standardized test... yuck!)
• SATs
• AP test
• Prom
• Finals
• Graduation (I gotta go see my friend graduate, even if I still have one more year!)
• Easter (...and all the church stuff that goes with it.)
• Choir tour
• ... and many more things, I'm sure!

Its going to be exciting but very busy! And its my junior year.... I gotta keep my grades up!

I was on a trip with one of the clubs I'm in at school this past weekend and ya know how there is always a song that end up being your "theme song?" Well this was ours... they are so good!

They are basically amazing! Almost sound like a modern Queen. Win!

Fun.



And my closing thought is this...
Many of you probably know the saying

"Dance like no one is watching,
Love like you've never been hurt,
Sing like no one is listening,
Live like Heaven is a place on Earth"
         -William W. Purkey

 I love that quote! But does that make you a fool? Especially the second line.
Thoughts??

Unfortunately, I don't have much else to say at the moment. So, I will write again soon!
Peace,
Adrienne

Waiting For Today...

Today.
Today.
Today.
Today.

 I've been waiting for this day for a long time.

Since I found out about it about 4 months ago.
I'm going to miss him so much.
Today.

Today is the day a really close and great friend of mine leaves....well, actually he already left....for the military.
He told me in the beginning of the fall that he was enlisted in the Navy. And he was leaving in February. At that time, it seemed so long off. Now, here it is. Already.

That day in fall when he told me, that was the day we first met. We were at a friend's house and him and I met. He, even so long before it happened, was so excited!
We became friends that night and have gotten so much closer since then. At one point he told me I knew more about him and his past than any of his other friends, some he had known his entire life. If that doesn't say how close we became, I don't know what will. He knows my parents, and they like him. He became friends with my little sister. He is absolutely in love with my dog. We really are great friends.
I knew from the start he was leaving, and by choice, wasn't moving back. I had 4 months to spend with him. We had such an awesome time in those months!
He left this morning. I saw him at church this morning (He was even included in the sermon!) and when it was time for him to leave I saw him walking out of the building realizing he hadn't said goodbye to me. I sprinted towards him -in heals, might I add- and gave him a huge hug! Said goodbye. And walked away. That was it. The end.
We'll write. We'll keep in touch. Hell, he still has 3 stories he promised to tell me. I'll see him again. I will always know where to find him.
It seems as if our whole friendship has had a time limit and I've never experienced that before. Spend as much time with a person as possible as you can, while you have the chance. Its eye opening. Thankfully, like I said, I'll see him again.

I'm so proud of him.

He's had a hard life and things haven't always been perfect but he pushed through and now he is doing something amazing and making a man out of himself. Its truly inspirational!
I can't believe today is here at last.
I can't wait to see him again.


Juan<3

God Bless America.
Love always,
Adrienne

Poem.

Here's a little free verse poem I wrote throughout today about betrayal.. [enjoy]

Okay fine,
Maybe I did lie.
I am angry.
Can you blame me?
I was betrayed
By you.
I feel broken.
My trust is gone.
I have to pretend
That everything is okay.
But its not.
Not even close.
You think you can do this?
You think this is okay?
Its not.
I struggle with trust to begin with
because of people like you.
Now you want me to trust you
Again?
Yeah right.
Cant you see that this is wrong?
That its hurtful?
No, you cant.
You got what you wanted.
That's all you care about.
You're selfish.
You'll push anyone down
If you get closer to the top,
Closer to winning.
But whats the prize?
Hurting me?
Hurting others too?
Something else?
Because all I see
Are others being punished
Because of you.
Is that what you want?
That seems to be what you're getting.

Accidental.

That's kinda how I feel sometimes. Not like me being born, of course. But other things...
Meeting people....I've only planned to meet like 5% of the people I know.
Being called. My name is Adrienne. 75% of phone calls I receive are butt dials.

Which is actually what promted me to write this. A close friend of mine who I've been waiting to call me had texted me. A few minutes later I recieved a phone call from them. I called back....it was a buttdial. =/

A short but sweet post.
I just feel like everything is an accident.... Or is it?
-Adrienne

Oh, high school.

High school. Some of the best and worst years of your life.

Waking up early, falling in love, stressing out, experiencing new things, keeping a balance, making mistakes, making new friends, dealing with teachers, health, breaking up, working hard, eating, being embaressed, studying, losing friends, sleep deprevation, family, finding yourself, learning, praying, figuring life out.

Its been a wild week and its only the second school week in 2012. I am so glad today is finally Friday. I have literally experienced every single thing on that list so far this year. Insanity. But hey, I guess thats just my life..

(oh, how i love green day)

Considering that I've dealt with all that and more in the last two weeks, I'm sure you can imagine its been an interesting time. The weird thing? It has been, overall, a great two weeks and I've been really happy. Things happen and life isn't always perfect, but this isn't so bad right now. :)

Now, I'm generally a very happy person (and if I don't always seem like that on here, its because I am venting) so having things going pretty well is just plain...awesome!

I'll end this on a happy note...
love always,
Adrienne