Waiting For Today...

Today.
Today.
Today.
Today.

 I've been waiting for this day for a long time.

Since I found out about it about 4 months ago.
I'm going to miss him so much.
Today.

Today is the day a really close and great friend of mine leaves....well, actually he already left....for the military.
He told me in the beginning of the fall that he was enlisted in the Navy. And he was leaving in February. At that time, it seemed so long off. Now, here it is. Already.

That day in fall when he told me, that was the day we first met. We were at a friend's house and him and I met. He, even so long before it happened, was so excited!
We became friends that night and have gotten so much closer since then. At one point he told me I knew more about him and his past than any of his other friends, some he had known his entire life. If that doesn't say how close we became, I don't know what will. He knows my parents, and they like him. He became friends with my little sister. He is absolutely in love with my dog. We really are great friends.
I knew from the start he was leaving, and by choice, wasn't moving back. I had 4 months to spend with him. We had such an awesome time in those months!
He left this morning. I saw him at church this morning (He was even included in the sermon!) and when it was time for him to leave I saw him walking out of the building realizing he hadn't said goodbye to me. I sprinted towards him -in heals, might I add- and gave him a huge hug! Said goodbye. And walked away. That was it. The end.
We'll write. We'll keep in touch. Hell, he still has 3 stories he promised to tell me. I'll see him again. I will always know where to find him.
It seems as if our whole friendship has had a time limit and I've never experienced that before. Spend as much time with a person as possible as you can, while you have the chance. Its eye opening. Thankfully, like I said, I'll see him again.

I'm so proud of him.

He's had a hard life and things haven't always been perfect but he pushed through and now he is doing something amazing and making a man out of himself. Its truly inspirational!
I can't believe today is here at last.
I can't wait to see him again.


Juan<3

God Bless America.
Love always,
Adrienne

Poem.

Here's a little free verse poem I wrote throughout today about betrayal.. [enjoy]

Okay fine,
Maybe I did lie.
I am angry.
Can you blame me?
I was betrayed
By you.
I feel broken.
My trust is gone.
I have to pretend
That everything is okay.
But its not.
Not even close.
You think you can do this?
You think this is okay?
Its not.
I struggle with trust to begin with
because of people like you.
Now you want me to trust you
Again?
Yeah right.
Cant you see that this is wrong?
That its hurtful?
No, you cant.
You got what you wanted.
That's all you care about.
You're selfish.
You'll push anyone down
If you get closer to the top,
Closer to winning.
But whats the prize?
Hurting me?
Hurting others too?
Something else?
Because all I see
Are others being punished
Because of you.
Is that what you want?
That seems to be what you're getting.

Accidental.

That's kinda how I feel sometimes. Not like me being born, of course. But other things...
Meeting people....I've only planned to meet like 5% of the people I know.
Being called. My name is Adrienne. 75% of phone calls I receive are butt dials.

Which is actually what promted me to write this. A close friend of mine who I've been waiting to call me had texted me. A few minutes later I recieved a phone call from them. I called back....it was a buttdial. =/

A short but sweet post.
I just feel like everything is an accident.... Or is it?
-Adrienne

Oh, high school.

High school. Some of the best and worst years of your life.

Waking up early, falling in love, stressing out, experiencing new things, keeping a balance, making mistakes, making new friends, dealing with teachers, health, breaking up, working hard, eating, being embaressed, studying, losing friends, sleep deprevation, family, finding yourself, learning, praying, figuring life out.

Its been a wild week and its only the second school week in 2012. I am so glad today is finally Friday. I have literally experienced every single thing on that list so far this year. Insanity. But hey, I guess thats just my life..

(oh, how i love green day)

Considering that I've dealt with all that and more in the last two weeks, I'm sure you can imagine its been an interesting time. The weird thing? It has been, overall, a great two weeks and I've been really happy. Things happen and life isn't always perfect, but this isn't so bad right now. :)

Now, I'm generally a very happy person (and if I don't always seem like that on here, its because I am venting) so having things going pretty well is just plain...awesome!

I'll end this on a happy note...
love always,
Adrienne

I'll Change!

No you won't.

"I'll find strength in pain, and I will change my ways..."



Everyone knows that people will screw up and so often they come back and say something like "I'm sorry, I'll changeeeeeee". Sometimes I believe them, sometimes I don't. But I know, deep down, that they won't ever change. Its so hard to come to a realization of that sometimes. And occasionally I even have a little bit of hope that they will change anyway. But they always fail to do so.

One person I know, however, did it the "right way," if you ask me. He left my life and a while later came back into it and said "Look, I changed! Let me prove it." And he did. He impressed me quite a bit with that and restored my faith in humanity (oh please, nothing could do that at this point).

To anyone reading this trying to prove you can change: take a lesson.

Saying you will change means nothing:

"I will climb to the summit of Mt. Everest."

 HA! Yeah, right. But look....I just said that. Saying you will change is just using words. Doing something about it, however, is completely different!

Love for now,

Adrienne

What do you do?

(Girl Like That by: Every Avenue)

What do you do if she tells you something about him, but he as told you the complete opposite? Especially if you have caught her in multiple lies and he told you that he had lied to you before. Who do you believe?

What do you do if the one person who you want to be SO angry at is the only person in the world you can't stay mad at?

What do you do if someone hurts you  more than anyone else ever has and then tries to make amends?

What do you do if the one person you love and care about more than almost anyone else in the entire world is the person who drives you absolutely insane?

What do you do if someone leaves your life completely and comes back....but you have no idea why they are back?

What do you do if all your friends and family hate with a passion the person who is most important to you?

I wish I had answers for these...I'm sure I will eventually. God is planning something and one day I will know what it is.

In the mean time, if you happen to think of an answer to one or more of these,

LET ME KNOW!

So for now, I'm going to go and I'll write soon. Love always,

Adrienne

Oh the joys of brotips...

I hate the feeling of coming home after a long day and getting yelled at. Today is one of those days. I figured a quick blog using brotip lessons would be amusing to me and anyone else who might be having a bad day..

Hence the reason I never and will never do that. I have about 3 friends who will text me until their phone dies. 1 I was just with and the other 2 are busy today and I'm not in the mood.

This is a lesson that is important to know. But notice the word "easier" ... its still possible.

This goes with the last one. If you think I'm dumb, ignore my next statement: Don't let go of anyone you are not POSITIVE you can live without. Eventually, for one reason or another, you will want them in your life.

There are some though, that you just have to make on your own. Period.

Truth.

There are very few bridges you can never cross again... But be sure about the ones you do burn.
ex. A friend of mine has only one regret in her life, but she spends every single day of her life trying to make it up to the person she hurt.

I've lived in one place my entire life. Its amazing to get out of there once in a while. Gives you a new perspective.

This is my favorite. Live by it.


And well, there we go. Now that I've sufficiently wasted a lot of time I should have been spending on my history essay... yay advanced classes... I'm off to do that. Peace.
brotips(TM)